Book 1: Confessions Collection Vol. 1 Book 2: Bond Confessions
Summary:
"Descend into a world of deception, depravity, decadence, desire and desperation…
In the opulent setting of London's aristocracy, lives a young woman fractured into two distinct individuals, one face with multiple facets.
One façade, a whore, London Brown, who will confess unfathomable truths, the other, a loving daughter, Desniah Williams will pull back the curtain to reveal what lurks in the shadows.
Caden Jacob Carrington V, a politician will do anything to reclaim the woman he lost, including dredging up pains of the past.
Rhys Christos Edward Stowell, a philanthropist will fight to win the woman he loves while baring the darkness of his soul.
Warning: Depending on the episode London Brown falls under the following: Erotica, BDSM/Kinky, and Dark Erotica/Taboo (dubious/non-consent). Also contains the theme of coping with survival of childhood sexual abuse/assault.
Author's:
Interview:
Hello, fellow readers!
Today I have for you a special interview with a character from one of my favorite series – Confessions by Leila DeSint. It discusses a lot about different topics character, personality and reasons behind person's behavior, especially since it deals with split personality, London and Desniah being the ones here. Caden is a childhood friend of Desniah, the primary personality, and someone that defined her a lot during her younger years. Rhys, on the other hand, became Desniah's friend later on and now they are a couple. But neither Rhys nor Caden, are ordinary and simple persons.
You can find my full reviews for Confessions Collection Vol. 1 and the continuation Bond Confessions HERE and HERE. Half a year ago, after reading the first part, I was intrigued by Rhys and did an interesting, and you can say – different, interview with him. You can find that HERE. And now, I'm beginning to see more of Caden Carrington, the depth of his character. I got more interested in him after Bond Confessions where he found out the awful truth that his father abused Desniah as a child, a woman for whom Caden has a deep, passionate love and can't seem to give up. He's not going out of my head so here are some questions I asked him.
Dear readers, Way Too Hot Books and I are pleased to welcome Mr. Caden Carrington...
I don't mean to be difficult but the name is Caden Jacob
Carrington the V just so we're clear. Not to be confused with the IV.
Thank you for having me Iva and Way Too Hot Books.
Though, I have to admit I’m a little surprised. I read
your interview with Mr. Stowell and you clearly state you support his desire to
be with Des.
You are right, Caden, But since then I have learned much more about you, so you still have a chance to make me change my mind.
Q: First, I'd like for you to describe yourself in three words.
Nicely done, Iva, backing me into a corner on the
first question.
Lost. Convincing. Determined.
Q: Your father is now recovering from an unfortunate incident. Why do you feel so responsible for his company and taking care of him now? I got the impression that you were never close to him and you said that you often don't understand him.
I don't much think about the company but rather the
people who work there. If I suddenly decide it's not my problem and the company
crumbles due to infighting by the board I've abandoned all those employed there.
We were never close that's clear to me now. He's just
a cold, calculating cowardly monster.
Q: Your parents always had an unsteady and complicated marriage. How important were they to you while growing up?
I had Des. None of their mess mattered when I was with
her. Neither my father’s terrorizing nor my mother’s drug induced numbness. It
was Des and me against the world and the odds. We had these perfect moments
that existed outside of all the screaming and loneliness.
Q: How did you feel when your mother committed suicide?
Numb for the most part. Relief.
In what way did it affect your life?
My mother was never really present. Always withdrawn or
medicating herself. When she died for a long time Des was gone too. That was
the hardest to bare. So I disconnected from women. Clearly, I didn't know or
understand them. How could I when my own mother chose pills and death over
raising her son or being a mother to me?
Des shut me out to keep her secret. You tell me what
kind of man I became?
All sounds a bit Freudian to me, doesn’t it? My own
mother didn’t want me and the woman I loved can’t stand for me to touch her…
and yet I still chase her.
They do say that when you love a person, you fight for them. But that is not always a simple thing, ha?
Q: What is your ideal type of a woman?
I want Des in a woman. Hence why after five years and
so many women later do I still need her. Despite her inability to share
physical intimacy with me, I want her. I always have and I always will.
Q: And Desniah? What did you fall in love about her?
She saw the world and who I could be differently. I
loved the dream of the man she believed I could be.
Growing up, I only saw what I was told to see. That
people were weak. It was their fault that they were have nots. Not simply as an
observation but rather a philosophy.
She opened my eyes. Knocked me off my privilege high
horse and made me believe even if you spent your life to accomplish one burning
change it was better than giving up on the possibility.
You ask me what I loved about her? When I was with
her, she expected nothing less than the best of me. If she saw glimpses of my failings
or weaknesses she told me that was when she loved me the most. She taught me
that love meant acceptance of the individual as a whole not just of the
person’s strengths. I love her strengths but even more her every flaw because
they are made up of all that she has overcome.
Those are some really beautiful words, Caden.
Q: Why do you believe Desniah can save you?
Without her none of it
matters. So if she can’t save me from the destructiveness growing inside me
than no one can.
Why do you feel so connected with her?
From the moment I laid eyes on her she stole my heart
and I willingly handed her mine.
Q: Ms. Olivia Landoff said that many men are fascinated by her.
Everyone was drawn to Des. She glowed with life as
child and as she matured her easy manner and looks grew men in.
Do you think you are good enough for her?
No. God no. Not in the slightest. Nor do I deserve
her. Not after all the ways that I failed her. Yet I cannot stop that my heart
still belongs to her.
Q: How do you feel now when the truth about your father is out?
Disgusted, with myself for being blind.
What do you plan to do about it?
I can’t go on forever as though I don’t know. Soon enough,
you’ll all find out what I’m going to do about it. I will right this wrong.
I'm very curious about that, too. And I hope you do the smart thing.
Q: The book says: I've chosen to lie for a living, or massage the truth to suit me… A skill I learned at a young age and perfected over the years.“ Why did you choose to lie for a living? Especially from a young age?
Lies are easy. They always were. My mother lied to my
father. He lied to us all and I didn’t even realize to what extent. Lies are
walls that you erect to create a buffer around you and everyone else.
Are you actually just afraid of the truth?
I believe the truth is relative in the eyes of man.
Meaning how we each choose to see it given our own perspective and experiences.
Like how you never revealed your suspicion with Desniah's father that he’s somehow abusing her when you were young?
You don’t think I carry guilt and anger for how I
handle the situation. I tried to get her to open up to me about what was going
on. You do understand that her father was a member of the siting government at
the time. An accusation like that if wrong could ruin lives and scandal
everyone involved including her. I did what I thought was right at the time.
Or when you never questioned why your father preferred Desniah and gave her privileges you didn't have. Why did you do that?
He did that for all the little girls around. This was
normal for his behaviour. He’d always maintained, he’d been disappointed they
had a son and not a daughter. I won’t defend his actions since you know why he
preferred them. My mother on the other hand. I’d always pitied her but if she’d
known and did nothing, I loath her.
How come things weren't too suspicious to you?
Iva, you have the benefit of seeing my father through
Des eyes. You wonder why I didn’t see the monster. I did see a monster. But the
one I saw got angry with my mother and I. He cared more about his ambitions
than his family.
That monster was less on edge and didn’t go on ragging
rants when Des stayed over.
If I’d suspected that the reason was because he was
inflicting suffering upon her, I’d have gladly let him yell and hit us to spare
her.
Q: What is your greatest fear?
That
as Des seems to she blames herself for what happened. I'd rather relieve her
self-hatred and she hold me responsible for failing her as you seem to than
watch her destroy herself.
Sincerely,
Caden
J. Carrington V
Thank you for this interview, Caden! Sorry if it made you feel a little interrogated and defensive, but it has helped a lot to understand your feeling for Desniah.
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There you go, readers. Here we have a man very much in love and holding strong to the feelings he has for Desniah. That is a man that wants to protect the best thing that happened to him, It's on us to wait for the next novellas to see what happens. Who will end up with Desniah? Is it Rhys, the one she seems to want right now, or will Caden change that? Maybe Rhys is the wrong choice. What do you think?
Read the Confessions for all the details of this amazing story!
Until next time,
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