Book 1: Confessions Collection Vol. 1 Book 2: Bond Confessions
"Descend into a world of deception, depravity, decadence, desire and desperation…
In the opulent setting of London's aristocracy, lives a young woman fractured into two distinct individuals, one face with multiple facets.
One façade, a whore, London Brown, who will confess unfathomable truths, the other, a loving daughter, Desniah Williams will pull back the curtain to reveal what lurks in the shadows.
Caden Jacob Carrington V, a politician will do anything to reclaim the woman he lost, including dredging up pains of the past.
Rhys Christos Edward Stowell, a philanthropist will fight to win the woman he loves while baring the darkness of his soul.
Warning: Depending on the episode London Brown falls under the following: Erotica, BDSM/Kinky, and Dark Erotica/Taboo (dubious/non-consent). Also contains the theme of coping with survival of childhood sexual abuse/assault.
Hello, fellow readers!
Today I have for you a special interview with a character from one of my favorite series – Confessions by Leila DeSint. It discusses a lot about different topics character, personality and reasons behind person's behavior, especially since it deals with split personality, London and Desniah being the ones here. Caden is a childhood friend of Desniah, the primary personality, and someone that defined her a lot during her younger years. Rhys, on the other hand, became Desniah's friend later on and now they are a couple. But neither Rhys nor Caden, are ordinary and simple persons.
You can find my full reviews for Confessions Collection Vol. 1 and the continuation Bond Confessions HERE and HERE. Half a year ago, after reading the first part, I was intrigued by Rhys and did an interesting, and you can say – different, interview with him. You can find that HERE. And now, I'm beginning to see more of Caden Carrington, the depth of his character. I got more interested in him after Bond Confessions where he found out the awful truth that his father abused Desniah as a child, a woman for whom Caden has a deep, passionate love and can't seem to give up. He's not going out of my head so here are some questions I asked him.
Dear readers, Way Too Hot Books and I are pleased to welcome Mr. Caden Carrington...
I don't mean to be difficult but the name is Caden Jacob Carrington the V just so we're clear. Not to be confused with the IV.
Thank you for having me Iva and Way Too Hot Books.
Though, I have to admit I’m a little surprised. I read your interview with Mr. Stowell and you clearly state you support his desire to be with Des.
You are right, Caden, But since then I have learned much more about you, so you still have a chance to make me change my mind.Q: First, I'd like for you to describe yourself in three words.
Nicely done, Iva, backing me into a corner on the first question.
Lost. Convincing. Determined.
I don't much think about the company but rather the people who work there. If I suddenly decide it's not my problem and the company crumbles due to infighting by the board I've abandoned all those employed there.
We were never close that's clear to me now. He's just a cold, calculating cowardly monster.
I had Des. None of their mess mattered when I was with her. Neither my father’s terrorizing nor my mother’s drug induced numbness. It was Des and me against the world and the odds. We had these perfect moments that existed outside of all the screaming and loneliness.
Numb for the most part. Relief.
My mother was never really present. Always withdrawn or medicating herself. When she died for a long time Des was gone too. That was the hardest to bare. So I disconnected from women. Clearly, I didn't know or understand them. How could I when my own mother chose pills and death over raising her son or being a mother to me?
Des shut me out to keep her secret. You tell me what kind of man I became?
All sounds a bit Freudian to me, doesn’t it? My own mother didn’t want me and the woman I loved can’t stand for me to touch her… and yet I still chase her.They do say that when you love a person, you fight for them. But that is not always a simple thing, ha?
Q: What is your ideal type of a woman?
I want Des in a woman. Hence why after five years and so many women later do I still need her. Despite her inability to share physical intimacy with me, I want her. I always have and I always will.
She saw the world and who I could be differently. I loved the dream of the man she believed I could be.
Growing up, I only saw what I was told to see. That people were weak. It was their fault that they were have nots. Not simply as an observation but rather a philosophy.
She opened my eyes. Knocked me off my privilege high horse and made me believe even if you spent your life to accomplish one burning change it was better than giving up on the possibility.
You ask me what I loved about her? When I was with her, she expected nothing less than the best of me. If she saw glimpses of my failings or weaknesses she told me that was when she loved me the most. She taught me that love meant acceptance of the individual as a whole not just of the person’s strengths. I love her strengths but even more her every flaw because they are made up of all that she has overcome.
Q: Why do you believe Desniah can save you?
Without her none of it matters. So if she can’t save me from the destructiveness growing inside me than no one can.
From the moment I laid eyes on her she stole my heart and I willingly handed her mine.
Everyone was drawn to Des. She glowed with life as child and as she matured her easy manner and looks grew men in.
No. God no. Not in the slightest. Nor do I deserve her. Not after all the ways that I failed her. Yet I cannot stop that my heart still belongs to her.
Disgusted, with myself for being blind.
I can’t go on forever as though I don’t know. Soon enough, you’ll all find out what I’m going to do about it. I will right this wrong.
Q: The book says: I've chosen to lie for a living, or massage the truth to suit me… A skill I learned at a young age and perfected over the years.“ Why did you choose to lie for a living? Especially from a young age?
Lies are easy. They always were. My mother lied to my father. He lied to us all and I didn’t even realize to what extent. Lies are walls that you erect to create a buffer around you and everyone else.
I believe the truth is relative in the eyes of man. Meaning how we each choose to see it given our own perspective and experiences.
You don’t think I carry guilt and anger for how I handle the situation. I tried to get her to open up to me about what was going on. You do understand that her father was a member of the siting government at the time. An accusation like that if wrong could ruin lives and scandal everyone involved including her. I did what I thought was right at the time.
He did that for all the little girls around. This was normal for his behaviour. He’d always maintained, he’d been disappointed they had a son and not a daughter. I won’t defend his actions since you know why he preferred them. My mother on the other hand. I’d always pitied her but if she’d known and did nothing, I loath her.
Iva, you have the benefit of seeing my father through Des eyes. You wonder why I didn’t see the monster. I did see a monster. But the one I saw got angry with my mother and I. He cared more about his ambitions than his family.
That monster was less on edge and didn’t go on ragging rants when Des stayed over.
If I’d suspected that the reason was because he was inflicting suffering upon her, I’d have gladly let him yell and hit us to spare her.
That as Des seems to she blames herself for what happened. I'd rather relieve her self-hatred and she hold me responsible for failing her as you seem to than watch her destroy herself.
Caden J. Carrington V
Thank you for this interview, Caden! Sorry if it made you feel a little interrogated and defensive, but it has helped a lot to understand your feeling for Desniah.
There you go, readers. Here we have a man very much in love and holding strong to the feelings he has for Desniah. That is a man that wants to protect the best thing that happened to him, It's on us to wait for the next novellas to see what happens. Who will end up with Desniah? Is it Rhys, the one she seems to want right now, or will Caden change that? Maybe Rhys is the wrong choice. What do you think?
Read the Confessions for all the details of this amazing story!
Read the Confessions for all the details of this amazing story!
Until next time,